15 Weeks and a day!

Its still unreal I'm almost 4 months and not showing. Actually, it's almost embarrassing.... i'll have to get the energy to take a photo and share, but I really feel like this baby is implanted very low and towards the back of my uterus. Just today my lower abdomen started feeling harder. I have the growing uterus pains, and lower pelvic pain real bad already. I've been waiting on my referral to go through to the physical therapist and it should be by tomorrow, thank goodness! My back is all out of whack and I'm hoping there is something she can "fix" to ease some pelvic pain. We'll see, because there are limitations now that I am pregnant.

Six more days till i'm FOUR Months and six more days till i'm headed home to Maryland ;)

I am not a failure!

...but i sure feel like one sometimes.

I totally fall into the statistics. The teen-mothers that give birth, conceive their second child with the three years following...check, and of those original teen mothers, they say that only a portion graduate from high school..check, and of all those mothers who give birth as a teenager, only 1% finish a college degree before they are 30...FML.

I was aiming for that 1%. Ok, I still am.

I know it sounds like I'm exaggerating, but I am only 22 so I should give myself some credit here. But I just feel like I cannot keep my education on track like I want. Today I completely withdrew from school due to my "complicated" pregnancy. Its an action I felt I had to do for the best. As in, my health, and most importantly, my babies.
I was completely stressing out over behind already in classwork/homework/projects and missing classes left and right.

Growing up and acting like an adult means making important decisions. I need/want to have a healthy baby so I can't be selfish, I just have to let it go and be happy. Which I am, i already feel like a weight has been lifted, but I'm also disappointed. It is at a good time though where my son needs my attention to teach him and wrap up potty training. It's also a good time because I'll get to spend all my extra time with my husband.

On a more positive note, I had a much better day and even took Zacorro to the park for a little bit. Here's a photo, enjoy!<3

HG

Wow, it's been a long time. But this is definitely cause to start writing again.

I am 13 weeks pregnant and miserable! This is baby numero 2 and I have been diagnosed with Hyperemesis gravidarum aka HG. Its basically a condition of severe vomiting and nausea that 2% of pregnant woman develop. Lucky ME. I was pretty sick with my son but not quite this bad, and i ended up feeling better with him and had a decent second half of pregnancy. So far this time, I have lost approximately seventeen to twenty pounds. But not only that, I am completely exhausted and weak. It takes so much just for me to get up and stand five minutes in the shower. There have been times where I just lay in the bathroom on the floor just waiting to either throw up or fall asleep. My stomach always has pains, probably because I am always constipated. My theory on that is because, since i can barely eat anything, my body wants to keep anything it can keep trying to suck nutrients from. Hence, no bowel movements for momma.

So these days consist mostly of living off our couch. And getting up early for classes, which really stinks because I signed up before I got so sick. I just need to make it through and I really wish and pray that some people start understanding that I am tired, Im in pain and i really am trying...

The BEST Christmas Present EVER!

Last weekend I found out that my husband was coming home last week. After 6 days of waiting to find out when, he finally was on his way and I went and picked him up Friday WAY early morning! What an amazing gift to have him home for Christmas!! So far things have been simply amazing and life at home has been so relaxed and warm.

We hired a photographer but she bailed on us and would NOT return my calls or messages....At the last moment, a girl who I barely knew messaged me and she came and snapped a few for us! I cannot tell you how grateful i am to her. So here ya go! Just a few snapshots :)

Our New Home

FINALLY! We have a house to call a home! We moved in almost 3 weeks ago now, but there have been many things keeping us busy! Everything is pretty much set up and unpacked, however there are a few piles still in the garage. I'm trying to have that cleaned out by the time Justin does come home.

Zacorro loves it here because he can run around! it's so funny too because when we first got here, i asked him " do you like our house? " and he started laughing and running in circles... i assume that's a big YES. Reina seems to like it here too, she sleeps with me and protect Zacorro.

We did embark on a new adventure last week, we got another dog, a german sheperd. However, he is going to a new owner, hopefully today. He is such a great dog, but he's doing things he shouldn't and he's very strong, and with my back he's hard to control. Anyways, i wish it would have worked out better but it just wasn't meant to be right now.

There is a program out for spouses of the military, $6,000 for school. & there is a program im trying to get into to go to school, and i have a year to finish to be a medical transcriber or work in billing and coding. Decent money and its something till i figure out what i want to do, really.

F Y I

After an 11 month deployment (minus the 2 week R&R) we have decided that our homecoming will be just the three of us. We've talked about it and this is an event that we don't want to share with anyone except our photographer. We've been the one's who've had to endure most of this deployment so, this is a family choice. I understand some people may be upset with our choice but, in the end, they will have to find a way to come to terms with it. We have a window for when he is set to come home, but that still may change. With that being said, that will be undisclosed as well. I can understand that people will want to know, but in reality, that's part of the rules of OSPEC. I am entitled to know because i am his spouse AND I'm the person he chose as point of contact. When he comes home, he will make sure to contact everyone.

I Need a Pulley.

I am BEYOND tired. I keep slacking on this whole packing/cleaning thing and i am moving in less than 48 hours! I don't know what else to do to keep my energy up. Zacorro is majorly teething and all he did was scream today and throw fits :( Poor kid. I have little stuff all over the house still. And there are a bunch of boxes that need brought upstairs and put in the garage but my back has been killing me! I need to go back to that physical therapist but i don't have time! I have to find one in Jacksonville asap! Well, I have some clothes to fold and i am going to find a way to bring those boxes upstairs. Hoping to be productive tonight while Zacorro is sleeping! Night!