My Public Breakdown.

SO today I had a math mid term and an anatomy lab final. Mind you, i got A's on both! At least i think so, we'll see on Monday, lol. But anyways, the real story. I dropped of Zacorro at 8am to daycare so I could make it to HCC by 9 to study for both tests some more. But I deserved a coffee. So I stopped at the Rutter's gas station to grab one. I wasn't paying much attention just doddling along. And I look up once i step onto the sidewalk and notice a man walking to his truck. Right before I actually noticed him, I noticed his,; truck's license plate. "UNITED STATES MARINE CORPS RETIRED" I looked at him and that tag again, and I just broke down. I mean, I didn't just have a few tears, or sob, I BAWLED my eyes out. I apologized and told him I have no idea why I just lost it, that I just was really missing my husband, and I have been trying not to think about it. And he literally smiled at me and told me it was ok. That he understood. He even gave me a hug. It was one of the dearest old men I've even met in my life. He was so genuinely sweet and he said to me, "He's doing a wonderful thing. I was over in 'nam quite a few times. Just remember, he's with the best!" And he patted me on the shoulder and winked. He almost looked like he was honored that I had talked to him. And I thanked him so many times. I went in, tried to gather myself and got myself some guatemalan coffee. As I left, he sat waiting in his truck, kind of like making sure I was ok. And he smiled and waved to me as I pulled off. No joke, he honestly felt like my guardian angel today telling me everything was going to be ok. He must have just been what I needed to put a skip in my step. It gave me something physical. Like, its seems so hard to explain, but it was almost a reinforcement, that people can go away to war, and come back just fine and grow old.

I miss him......

I wrote this because I want all of you to know that, although you may be praying Justin's safe while he's gone. No one is truly going to understand. Unless you have gone through this before. It's extremely hard, but I think we are both doing a great job so far!

August is R&R and that it going to be strictly SUMMER-RAIN, JUSTIN & ZACORRO time. We don't care is anyone gets mad. Our family deserves two weeks together out of an entire year without other people being selfish. But our family time is only after Justin & I's two day getaway, hopefully ;-)