I totally fall into the statistics. The teen-mothers that give birth, conceive their second child with the three years following...check, and of those original teen mothers, they say that only a portion graduate from high school..check, and of all those mothers who give birth as a teenager, only 1% finish a college degree before they are 30...FML.
I was aiming for that 1%. Ok, I still am.
I know it sounds like I'm exaggerating, but I am only 22 so I should give myself some credit here. But I just feel like I cannot keep my education on track like I want. Today I completely withdrew from school due to my "complicated" pregnancy. Its an action I felt I had to do for the best. As in, my health, and most importantly, my babies.
I was completely stressing out over behind already in classwork/homework/projects and missing classes left and right.
Growing up and acting like an adult means making important decisions. I need/want to have a healthy baby so I can't be selfish, I just have to let it go and be happy. Which I am, i already feel like a weight has been lifted, but I'm also disappointed. It is at a good time though where my son needs my attention to teach him and wrap up potty training. It's also a good time because I'll get to spend all my extra time with my husband.
On a more positive note, I had a much better day and even took Zacorro to the park for a little bit. Here's a photo, enjoy!<3
Never feel like a Failure! Because your NOT! I know right now you feel like things are going as planned, but God gives you the strength to keep going. You are a great mom & wife! You have a education & several years of college behind you, you will continue and get your degrees when you can.
ReplyDeleteTake care of what's priority and God will show you the way!
I am always here for you..... Love you always,
Mom!