Its [not] Falling Together.

I can't seem to get everything organized. If it's not one things its another. I almost wish I didn't go back to school. But at the same time I just wanna get it over with. There just seems to be so much going on and I cant handle it like i used to. There are people like Laura who I used to talk to all the time about everything and now we never talk. Then there is all the guard drama every weekend because it always has to be brought up about Katelyn and Jess. They don't like me and I don't care about that, but it pisses me off they didn't give my sister a solo because they both know damn well they had them, not to mention if you look at their senior shows... well let just say they were the main points. Jess is getting married so I am super excited about that but I just feel like there is nothing for me to do and it sucks because im her matron of honor and i feel like i should be doing a lot. BV has pretty much been losing contact with me since she's been with Jon. And Mallory and Kate, we all have so much going on but I miss them soo much. Sometimes I wish it was like it used to be, but I don't even feel that any more. I really wish I was in Jacksonville helping Becca move out and spending time with preggo Jess and miss Mandi! Its so crazy because I wasn't close to them until i was moving away and now i wish we would have been before that! Those guys have been nothing but amazingg to me! Amy has offered me an amazing opportunity to design an outdoor guard show with her!! And its soo nice to talk to her again, i missed her. I havent heard from Ryan and Derek really since Justin left, and thats kind of a surprise. I love the fact that I have more family around me though! I wish i had more time to go and hang out with my cousins. Nathan wants to stay friends with me and be with Ashleigh. She wants me to hang out with them, but I still feel like it'll be akward. And then like the other 20 of my friends I haven't even had a chance to catch up with recently. I just feel like i am drifting away from everyone. Then on top of that Zacorro and I have been so sick! I missed an entire week of class because of it all. I just want to give up. But i'm Summer-Rain, and I can't.

Thanks Mom, Dad, Star-Lena, && especally Elisa for all your help. I miss you Justin ... and I love you all for your support.