I was working a decent job, with decent people make DECENT money...
Finally felt like we were getting ahead. I was even going to school part time.
Then one thing leads to another, got screwed over when i was going to switch jobs, same time, found out I was pregnant...so it was decided that i will go to school full time during this pregnancy.
My body had a whole OTHER idea.
IT would decide to be allergic to the baby i am carrying and puke up any and all stomach contents every day, 7 times a day. Nothing is going right, nothing at all, and I just feel so sorry for myself. I really do, because everything was going so great. I was booking clients for my photography, I made A's in school.. I just feel so lost and out of control of my life...
Effing Obama, I wish you lived on the salary my husband makes. It is VERY hard to live off a CPL's pay when I can't work, and we are unexpectedly, expecting baby number two.
Needless to say, I feel very depressed these days and I feel myself pulling away from everyone..I feel embarrassed that i can't, for once in my life, pull myself together every day.. i know life is hard, but I feel like my life is ALWAYS hard.
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